07.17
I’m tired. Yes, so what else is new?
I got back from the night I am promoting, stuffed my face, got on the computer to check Zee Avi (see previous post) as a mate who came to see my play told me about her after he heard me play a Yuna song over the PA. I eventually got in my bed at 2AM or so. Slept fitfully for a few hours and then tossed and turned and come 7AM, I was too restless.
Why? Well, guess I’m accepting things. Awareness does not necessarily relieve one of feelings. And I felt very triggered last night.
Triggered? You might ask. Yes, triggered into wanting to be saved by the bevy of beauties that seem to be populating the entire City of London. Triggered by wanting to intrigue with em. Triggered by wanting to do more than just have polite conversation with em.
Ok, good, that’s off my chest now. Moving swiftly on……..
I’ve also come to accept that being a promoter means I have to take a backseat as a performer. Which doesn’t mean to say that I don’t perform, or that it is any less an opportunity for exposure, it just means that I change my attitude towards what my intentions are. And that is actually very helpful for me. It means now that as a promoter, I open the night by performing, because no one ever likes to go on first, and by being given the job of breaking the ice, it actually lessens the pressure of having to put on a great performance as it is seen as just an ice-breaker and none more expected. And that serves me well. After all, the best performances are when one expects nothing of the performance, when it is done with no self-seeking motives.
It also means I close the night. Again that suits me well with the same benefits as opening the night.
I’m doing a gig tomorrow, 18 July, at The Castle, 225 Portobello Road, London W11 1LU. Pop in if you are around. 9PM.
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Oh, also on Sunday, I’ll be attending a new open mic session, SatuKpala, at Delima Malaysian Restaurant, Southwick Street, LONDON W2, 8PM, and also to dine there I should think.
I am tired! Did I mention that already…?!
